believe it anot, ernest is thinking straight for once.
hahaha, ohwell!
school sure has taken up alot of my time now, especially friday.
my friday nights could only be spent in comp lab until next semester.
let's see what happens in the lecture room when the lecturer finishes early,
amanda took this smug shot! *ROAR!
anyway, went for sajc's band concert. quite nice la, made me miss playing in the band(as usual) and it left something inside me as well.
the three words 'i love you' so frequently and carelessly used, for me i haven't used it for very long. so if ernest says he loves you, he mean it.
it just keeps coming back to me, till the end
finally the weekend's here and,
ernest's very tired.
but there's one thing i'm wondering,
when you run out of friends, will you come back to me?
thinking it through again, why can't i leave you alone?
this song just makes me see so much of myself inside.
cause darling i'm tired,
i'm tired of the lonely days and the dark endless nights.
and it has taken some time, because i didn't know if i could ever let you go.
but you helped me figure it out somehow or rather,
that i'm better off alone.
but every now and then, my heart gives in to the hope that someday you'll change.
then alone i'll wake up, to my own mistakes that it's just another foolish game.
i'm not going yet because i'm afraid i might leave you behind.
my room underwent a facelift that i didn't know.
my mom was the culprit, yeah thanks.
she moved away my study desk and shelves but luckily all my important things are intact. i'm quite shocked with the changes actually, surprised that she managed to do all so quickly when i'm away at school. one thing that i'm super amazed at, she managed to dig out like $21 and 20 cents somewhere in my room la and it happened to be mine. OH, WHAT A SHOCKER! x) hahaha. more money, YAY! x))
ohwell! anyway, if you don't know ernest 'please note.
PLEASE NOTE! ernest fucking hate chain mails.
those that i received through my mails, NEVERMIND!
i can delete them without even opening them.
BUT! thanks to this person who 'instant messaged' me the chain on msn. fucking ruined my day. it's not that i actually believe in this sort of things but think about it logically, does it really makes you feel good when somebody at the expense of his own mental well-being sends you something to curse you? and ask you to send it to ten other people in a limited time. does it? so if you actually forward the chain, you'd be indirectly cursing ten other victims. i'm not blaming those that are psychologically afraid that it might harm you, i'm just telling the one who started it PLEASE DO THE WORLD A FAVOUR AND GO TO HELL! x)
yeah, i wouldn't forward the chain even if i'm damn free. so just imagine how cursed i am. i'm looking forward to the curse tomorrow, thanks! 1pm-4pm i'd die right? okay la, as if i'm afraid of dying. i want to die actually since i already considered my life, pointless.
anyway one picture, that's me and yani during lecture.
before i go off,
i want to share this song with those who will happen to take a liking to it.
feel free to ask me for it. x))
Katharine McpheeBetter Off Alone(it's on the player, do listen) x)
i just changed the theme of my blogskin if anybody has realised.
the previous one was >my defintion, and now is >>our fairytale.
i'm not someone that believe in fairytales but for you, i will.
school has very much started, week1 is over. taking 9modules! *faints. on top of that, we got all the hardcore lecturers but they're the module coordinator! x) (more tips for exams, they set the papers.)
oh yah, have i mentioned? i'm going to learn guitar, starting lessons soon! x))
ernest has no lessons every monday, i welcome all to come know me! x) ernest is single, *winks. x)
OHWELL!
on today,
sunday, april 22rd.
went out with lollipops
right, i don't know what came over us but they made me felt really bimbotic. x)
alright, more picture and less typing. OH, that's hot! x)
sing your love song to me.
i find it so hard to love, anymore.
i need someone to be complete and so achieve contentment in life,
i need you. x)
ONLY HEAR THE GOOD STUFF.
St' Andrew's School Gold
without honours.
it's okay guys, we will make a comeback with a huge bang next syf.
anyway, today's my first day in school. ohwell, all i can really say is it's getting crowded in here. HAHAHA! 6 new courses opened in my polytechnic, so i guess now the intake is bigger. i realised something today, the freshies travel in herds. maybe because it's only the second day and they're not very close to each other yet, that's why.
nicholas and
yani are like so loved by the year1s cause they were their OGL, i'm like whatever. >.<
i have to start sleeping early now, no more late nights for ernest. i almost didn't wake up today! OHWELL! x)
goodnights people!
those unknown messages were from me
Now you can blog in Hindi!
if i'm not wrong, there's eight other new language excluding Hindi.
anyway, i'm going to change gear now. from now ernest is going full throttle in life. ever come to a crossroad? when you don't know which direction to take from here, afraid that you might continue to feel lost and lonely. that's putting it metaphorically. in real life scenario, relationship aspect, broke up but can't move on and you don't know where to go;what to do. solution? okay here, mummy says, school starting already right? just put all of yourself in school work and don't think about that person. BUT!
you can't blame me for not being able to move on because i dare to dream.
sidetrack abit here awhile arh, (dreamgirls) all you have to is dream, just dream! and we'll be there, yeah. erps. x)
okay back, but really la. i applaud those who goes after their dreams.
i'm going to try no matter what.
just hanging out with friends makes ernest happy. x)
i heard you crying over the phone, i didn't know what to do.
i just sat in one corner and cried.
today's a very special day to remember.
i shan't let anyone spoil my day, say all you want disgusting freak, since you're so into dragqueens ask lionel to be one for you. _l_ up yours.
dumbfucks.
don't ever cross my path again, i've never said anything bad about you.
omg la, i can't believe i just wasted four lines in my blog. so not worth it, really. okay, back to more important stuffs.
ernest is still single, so stop asking whether i'm seeing anyone. what to do? i'm not hot enough what. *winks* anyway did i mention before?
jiawei, you're the hottest guy
but in my heart and
ansley is the most gorgeous babe
but also in my heart. later
emily read already jealous, aiya, second okay? LOL! x)
i'm feeling the most lethargic anyone can get now but yet sub-consciously i'm blogging. ohwell!
i'm going to advertise for myself now, ernest is single and up for grabs. just need to leave a tag behind and i'd get my underlings to audition you.
but of course, JUST TAG LA! that board is so stagnant leh. haiyo!
i wanted to have some alone and quiet time today at the
esplanade but it seems like i broke the trend today.
only during the darkest moments in your life then you will find light.
jiawei, stay happy always! x)
because i know how it feels like, lean on your friends for now bah.
lean on us! LOLLIPOPS will save your day. x))
in your darkest moments, we will light up a little candle and stay vigilant until brighter days ahead comes.
a good friday to everyone! x)
i think
huixian asked me to go for service? not sure, lost the message.
was it sunday or friday? anyway, i own you a b'day present! x)
don't worry, i already bought it! turning 18 is a special year.
emily recently read to me, something about having hatred towards parents because things weren't going the way it should. do i look like that sort? ernest bears no grudges lor. x))
OHWELL! something random, i want to go for band practice but, ha! nevermind!
jeez, i'm feeling kind of emo now. was once a pair but individuals now.
sigh!
okay, ernest is back blogging about his sad sad life.
aiya, NO LA! someday i'd have to get use to it, so might as well be now. x((
i went for a haircut today, and people keep saying i look like 'xu zhen rong.' it's so irritating, I TELL YOU! ernest look like ernest, period.
why ignore me? sigh.
Quick Thoughts,
feeling your feelings is only half the task - you must share your feelings, too.
So maybe things have been a little more friendly than passionate between you and a loved one lately. that's okay. that doesn't mean your love is any less; it just means that it's taking a different form. roll with it.
okay, i'm rolling. wheeeeeeeeeeeee x)
april fool!
finally reunited with the lollipops. x)
hanged out at our usual hunt, ate kennyrogers.
ribs are from pigs not chicken, jiawei.
as usual we had non-stop conversation and so many topics to cover.
okay next, PICTURES!
ansley had to go home early, so we went to Cathay and caught a movie 'the number 23' with jiawei's friends. one thing that turned me off big time today, Plaza Singapura, went toilet with jiawei and when i came out of the cubicle, there was this fat man half-naked showing his 'bossoms' ewwww!
the movie turned out to be rather pointless, as usual. what can you expect out of a thriller man! ohwell.
it felt rather empty before but today i realised i wasn't the same ernest i used to be. i felt shy, a little fuzzy inside, a little tickling feeling. hmmmmmmm! but i'm happy, puts a smile on my face. x)
maybe la...
