another weekend went by quickly again. for me i spent it like any other weekend oblivious to the events that are taking place in the country. F1 race, caught a slight glimpse of it and not at the spectators' stand of course but on television.
if you were to read TODAY on some day last week and so happened to chance upon the "Voices" page. you probably would have read something like this, "I rather use the money to go on a holiday than watch some cars drive around in circles."
whereas for me, i thought the race was rather interesting. interesting at the parts where the F1 cars crashed, hehe. :D:D anyway, more on my weekend now. went to the National Museum to take photos and to look around. it is actually not that bad being in a Museum on a weekend if you ran out of places to go in Singapore (which may happen very often), except that it is so silent inside and it would be kind of weird if you even made abit of noise. but Fort Canning Park would be suitable, if being quiet is not your thing, it is just behind the National Museum.
since my entries are ever so mundane and also it is not everytime i would come to a convention with myself of what is and what's not in my life. i am here now, writing something that is heartfelt. i will try to be clear without tainting the story i feel, too much.
so let me start by saying, i've been hurt alot throughout these nineteen years of my life. people usually don't take me seriously, on the facade i may appear or seem to be carefree and happpy-go-lucky along with my never ending train of nonsense but on the inside they don't see beyond the depth of the blue waters as it gets darker with every step closer into. but i've also given hurt alot, everything in life has its balance. what you reap is what you sow, same meaning.
pain is what we keep most close to the heart. unable to let go of it completely to see what's on the other side. prolonged and gotten too used to this pain my friend, it will be harder and longer for you or anyone to let go then. and here is what i really want to say tonight,
it is so silly. but sometimes we let ourselves get in the way of what we love so dearly.
i will no longer, let my bad thoughts hinder and hamper myself no more. it deters me from what i have lost of that i had before; but it will not again for what i have now.
goodbye e, once or twice was enough because i have found me now. ambiguous i may practice with animosity.
i promised a proper update this entry but no, i'm not doing it.. YET. for those who liked the Charlie the Unicorn video here's another one! HAHHAAHA! put a banana in your favourite ear.
and noticed i changed the background a litte? yes, i did.
initially i wanted to blog on something else but since it is already rather late for a school day, i shall update on the weekend instead.
Jiawei's birthday turned out fine, i guess. i think his whole entire family and extended family was there, everybody looked the same; everybody is family. i didn't eat a whole lot, at least i think i didn't because it felt like i was gaining some weight. AHH! tummy alert, how saddening plus awful but i am going to work the tummy off from now. so i'm experiencing a drop in my metabolism rate finally, but then again? am i that old!!!? am not most certainly! *speak many gibberish suddenly* aiya, whatever.
2 photo update, my camera was acting cranky in macro mode without flash under the dim lighting. so it turned out a teeny weeny bit blurred.
and for the second one, haven't seen this girl for AGES and i mean forever. heh. :) you've been missed.
so anyway, i think i will do a more proper and serious update next entry. it might not be well liked, but hey, some people are better listeners and are genuinely concerned more than others.
and lastly, if you're a die hard fan for LAME videos, here's one! you will probably laugh through the whole thing if you get the lame drift. :) just listen to the way they converse, how annoying!
down a glass or two of some double shot liqueur, loosens me up and it gets me to be oblivious to the world of thoughts swirling inside my head. i like that very much, at the very least i would stop worrying-thinking and start enjoying every minute spent in oblivion.
gosh, i need my sleep!! for i am a person who needs much sleep and 7 odd hours everyday isn't exactly doing very well for me. and apparently, i managed somehow but very poorly.
this is a very pointless update, but what do you want to read from a full-time final year project student's blog? GET OUT OF HERE MAN, SHOOO!! but no, this post would go on and mindless people will continue reading on, because they like to read about sad sad sad project students' lives and gloat over our misery and suffering. how evil aye? they're starting to grow horns on the head, evil people are also horny people, and also those on holidays now who gets the luxury of sleeping 10-12 hours or more a day!? how repulsive, gah.
okay, i'm losing my mind. it's 11:57pm now on the 19th September 2008, so Happy 21st Birthday Mr. Ee Jiawei! yes, i didn't purposely emphasize the 21 years old of age. i'm so nice, you will get wrinkles on your birthday. :X so anyway, you will get your birthday present from us (meaning me and ansley) tomorrow and you MUST like it, i mean you WIll like it. once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, 21st one. :D
oh oh OH oh, and something i did in school, not because i was bored but because my supervisor was bored.
it totally will make a perfect flawless advert for "remember to wash your hands after nicholas sits on `em" and maybe one wash isn't enough so give it a couple of thorough wash with lotsa Dettol. :) yes nicholas, true friends are really honest. :))
life's pretty mundane, again. oh come'on final year project is driving me insane! the hours are tiresomely long, draggy, boring and being stucked in a lab that i'm not supposed to be in is really bad. just imagine this feeling, the people who are meant to be inside that lab kinda ostracise you because you're an outsider but your only option is to let them see you in that jaundice eyes. ohwell! hope that things do get better soon, oh please do.
and also to end off, here is a little bit on responsibility. my 5cents worth of thought, if you are to commit something bad, should you bear the consequences? yes. please have something called responsibility and also the integrity to own up to your actions.
bonjour singapour. yeah, i'm not going to Paris anymore due to some very unexpected circumstance. i just know that i will regret giving up this opportunity of a lifetime but at the same time i'm at a dilemma because there're many factors making me stay.
anyway, the weekend is here and although it is only friday but its not too early to kick in the excitment. i have so many overdued presents currently still in my possession, not because i didn't buy them beforehand but because i haven't got a chance to meet them yet. gee.
i call her grumpy. marcus' kitty.
no matter how hard you try to take on another persona other than your own, people are not going to like it and they will most likely have their reserves on you. even if that would make you a more popular and cool person, you're not. so instead of trying so hard to become someone else? why not just be yourself? put that big effort more into becoming yourself and others might just appreciate you more for being yourself. aye?
by right, i should be updating on Ansley's birthday celebration yesterday but none of that happened. hahaha, but i would still do an update on yesterday.
me and jiawei met up with jorge, fifi and friends for dinner instead. Max Brenner @ esplanade after dinner, heh.
and this is the chocolate thing called souffle, it looks like a chocolate cake on the exterior but there is hot melted chocolate stuffed inside it. HEHHEE! :D
it feels almost heaven, yeah. all the excitment for yesterday kinda leaked away slowly. most of it was replaced by much diappointment. lets touch on the monday blues, not too much blues for me now as i've decided to not go to school anymore until i actually need to. yes, self-declared holidays!! hooray. :O sitting at a coffee bean outlet near home, too much noise output from the usual aunties and toddlers who are at the opposite table from me, a sack of potatoes is what they used to reserve the table; how very convenient.
live everyday as if its your last, do not wait till you start to realise you are losing someone; before you try to salvage the relationship because you might have already lost, whoever.
treasure your love ones today and everyday. all i know is one day all of what is present now may cease to exist one day, so there's hardly any boundaries when it comes to the people i care for close to my heart.
Final Year Project timetable, Monday - Thursday : 0830hours - 1800hours. Friday : 0830hours - 1730hours.
gosh, i am already dreading it!! today was suppose to be the first day but my supervisor was absent, 1 day out of 12weeks is wasted. heh. my overseas internship is more or less confirmed, i might have to stay throughout the year till the next before coming back. i guess, its better to keep myself busy for now as i have a few paranoid thoughts that's bothering me.
true love is your soul recognition of it's counter point and another.
serious in intention,purpose or effort and sincerly zealous.
show me depth in sincerity or feelings.
i'm seriously important, demanding and need your attention.
define ernest if you can.
